My Sweet Ramblings ;

after the sem

2006-12-14T20:58:00.000+08:00

im more twisted after the sem is over..tot id never write again..but then again..sadistic me cant help it..so here we go again..im feeling hopeless..Let's list down as if it's fun to do so ;D

Im afraid to love
Im afraid to trust
Im afraid to hope
Im afraid to be happy
Im afraid to have feelings
ETC

SO..im annoucing my cowardice.. Im sorry things are not working out the way they should.. And guess what.. Down With Love ; Im down alryte.. So.. the reason is ME.. but the thing is just <3
If i dun get it.. well.. i screwd up.. SO now.. Im bonded.. but im tryin not to be so bonded.. altho bonded.. heyy.. twisted.. *bored* So lemme see.. I AM AFRAID OF EVERYTHING.

Altho i must admit.. He changed..I mean..Never had he replied ANY txt msges if he felt asleep..Yesterday night, i gave up.. I told myself goddammit how stupid i was!! Im falling back for him.. So i pull that cold hearted cover back again.. Throw the cellphone away from me.. I dont want anything anemo.. Nuthin.. Then.. early morning.. I got a replied.. WITH 'sorry..'... It was pretty much a miracle.. He wud never do stuff like dat.. i duno.. found him become a more..a lot more..a forgiving person.. I tot he;d just ignore me o smthg.. then.. naa.. he did not.. erghhh.. so since he chaged a LOT.. i got these hope flutterin like butterflies... which i think represents myWEAKNESS.. and well.. a lot of other things he did made i think.. OMG is this guy is for real or just another sweet talker or faker or his fren makin som huge 'funey' joke... wen i doubted.. he was.. more like.. not pissin.. but instead askin me to bliv.. which is UNUSUAL.. okay..so dats it.. i think..

However...... Im tryin not to be so fragile... I know I am one now..Ever..About the recent 'hope-heart-trust broken' discovery...I have not even shed a tear.. Not even once.. Im just not ready.. Not ready to be sad.. Not ready to cry.. Altho inside it's torturing.. but i know once a tear is shed.. Imma lose it.. I cant lose myself.. *as if im not now..* it just.. hurts.. it hurts to want something or someone.. Im doing all silly things.. I will definitely destroy myself in the end.. Ther's no questionin in tat.. Well..

If I am alone.. It is fine with me..Im not scared..But if Im not sure..Like this..Then..Im afraid..Im afraid to be alone....There you go..People do love themselves more when they love somebody eh.. <3

if u dun ; then dun bother

2006-08-06T01:37:00.000+08:00

came back from utp hoping to get better things here.. nuthin have change..

anyway..well..had huge fite wit tira..serious huge..i dint undrsnt y she told it to prnts.. bcuz its between me n her.. puhless.. if u dun want d mess wit me, den dun make any of it.. cuz it sucks when u involve others in it.. and hell.. i dun think i wna come back again.. but of course i will come back due to some reason.. 4 myself..

tell me dat im selfish, mean, evil.. but in d end, u aint noe nuthin..

just hell.. if u dint even meant to do sumthin for me honestly, den just dont bother.. bcuz in d end, u tell me as if u keep an account.. wat d hell is dat? if u r doin it honestly, perhaps u will not do dat.. its just dat, i dint ask anything from U.. so just let me be.. erghh.. the more im exposed to this situation, the more i might become dat just for vengence.. seriously, i dont wna do dat even tho i feel like it..

u keep sayin stuff u dint even noe wat it meant.. its just sumthin dat have been accpted from the public since before.. do u even noe wat it meant?? u dont.. if u noe, den u wud have explain instead of talking n talking n talking..

ithe more u talk ; the more i hate ; the more i ignore ; the meaner i get ; the more my coscience got worst.. seriously, i felt like im heartless.. with no exact feeling of everything.. i noe i feel sad etc.. but others r just blurred..

soorry to sound like such a stuck up loser, but i dint choose this.. perhaps, i did since i didnt take action to it.. yeah.. its me too.. but im not alone in that..

but yeah..i AM still alone either way.. i'll wave gudbyes now...

simply cudnt express how i felt sumhow.. it turn out to be anguish, nothingness.. its scary sumhow.. erghh.. my gosh, im gettin more sadistic.. ouhkay, powerless.

Let.Me.Be

2006-07-28T20:01:00.000+08:00

Imprudent..

My middle name it is..

Due to that..

Im decaying inside..

Weakening...

Close to the end..

Mumbling to self..

Noticingng that..

Whats audible is merely

My own breathe..

My own footsteps..

In a void..

Of endless journey..

Where art thou..?

walk

2006-07-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

.iwalkthisroadalone.

.itsnotmychoice.

.ihatedthisroute.

.whereamitogo?.

.whoknows.

.idont.

.gudbye.

Utp

2006-07-23T13:15:00.000+08:00

holaa..im home now..just for a while tho..goin back to utp this evenin..huhuu..d place is ok..but not d pple..i mean, dey're not bad..its just that..they are not xactly indpndnt..unlike acs..not all of em..but u noe..dey talk crappy crap2..i noe dey r smart in d academic way..but in stuff not concerin book or stuff like dat...not really..dats y i dint like d place dat much..i noe im not all dat gud in handlin myself..but i noe i've been thru stuff dat wudnt make me so unlike 18 years old.. hahaa.. acs pple does noe more and are more indpndt than them.. i hope i will be fine there.. ok.. gtg.. works to do.. papaii.. miss home.. miss acs.. miss my gals.. miss my buddie.. miss my guy the most.. akakkaa..

btw, chat with my senior last nite.. he's pretty funney afta all d shy2 cat.. akakakaa.. ouhh.. i love my seniorss.. dey r like so profesional.. and colorfull.. my fave wud be.. abg akil, abg hakim, abg firdaus, kak syira, kak rini, JOSE!! , chinh, ming ann, abg wong etc.. ahahahahahaa..

Bon Voyage!

2006-07-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

hye dear bloggie..its u and me again..havent been writtin for quite some tyme becuz i was 'busy' (as if!) and wasnt xactly in the mood.. yeah.. and headache..

me and radzi is doin fine..just lately, i just need to pick a fite with him..akakaka..or have i mention dat before? hahaha.. uh well.. we're fine.. actually, gud.. its just dat he is always busy.. but well.. that cant be help..

these few days, i've been shoppin this and that..goin for a party..went out with frens..i still dun get it that pple think dat im tryin to be sume miss quiin bee to the younger teens hu are my frens.. at tymes, i tot.. maybe i shud stop bein frends with them.. u noe, it actually give me headache.. litel as it is, it matters to me.. esp wen d opinion comes from sum1 i trust.. few..or a couple.. when they agree.. i feel like i saw fakeness.. not bcuz i dun trust.. but the FACE..

ouhh..sarah bought the same hp as mine..ahahaa..and we ave d same wrist watch brand..so its pretty cute..akakakaka..joyce is pissed with school - i wud be too.. thank god im not there.. michelle lookin tired sumhow due to m3x..and she looks like syera now.. dun blame me for that..i almost faint.. akakaa..

my sis gon be alone now..akakkaa..ouh! d big thing.. im goin to utp tomorrow.. papaii city of clouds.. akakaka.. so today i got like rm50 from my mom's frens.. murah rezki.. akakaaka.. i think it is true, u get more than u gave.. i kinda bein nice to sis and buy her stuff.. blanje her.. and then..bamm.. i thnk, all in all.. i got around rm 100 from mom's frens and garmps.. yeah.. ahahaa..and my salary as my sis tutor.. etc.. d first tyme, im not broke.. ahahaha...

mom said utp gon giv me money for laptop in 3 munts.. cant wait! cant wait for the 1500 cash too.. akakkaaa.. ouh!! my clothes is like minimum of 3 bags.. there's other stuff like iron, iron bod, laundry bag..this and that.. i need a lorry..ouhh.. my comforter n stuff.. 3 pillowsss.. 2 jelerry box.. anthr box for my stufee.. and all my gurly wurly stuffee.. so ermm.. im SPOILT? ahahahaaa..

ouh..i bought a new sling bag..its kinda nice..but too brutal maybe? a skull wit horns.. altho, not visible.. but dats d best i saw last nite.. ahahaa.. im still bringin my pink sling bag.. hehehee.. and my tote bag.. hahahaaa.. i got lotsa bags? hahaha.. maybe.. i leave suime at home.. aighh..

goin to sleep soon..i NEED to.. i NOE i do.. ahahahaa.. k daa... till we meet again dear diary.. hahahahahaaahahahaa..

omg..

2006-07-07T17:06:00.000+08:00

slept at 6am..woke up..well..just now..around 4pm..akakakkaa..uh well..anyway..i was lookin thru my sis ms..then open this one profile..and think..sum1 looks familiar..he went to astaka..well..he edited his pic with photoshop like veri nicely..so i went to his page..to mah big surprise..i view hsi picz..and then..

i think...i noe the guy is 1999..he totally change till i cant even regonise him..even the way he dress is different.. now i see him in shorts bla bla bla..before, he's super baggy.. ahahahaa.. wow..the discovery for today...

he's dun to be with.. once, during band nite.. we came late for campfire.. so tryin to find chair.. then i got this chair.. sat on it.. this guy.. he almost sat on me.. i almost fell off my chair of that shock! ahahahaa.. uh well.. he liked sarah before.. and im like, the victim.. after finish playin at d pool that nite.. went to the campfire back.. well.. nobody's there.. i was walkin around with sarah...just wanted to sit ther..then, to ma big surprise..he's there..lyin on few chairs.. haighhh...so havta wait while he's talkin to sarah..

while we were there, we were well...'attacked' by few boys.. playin with d toy gun.. with dat yellow colour bullet.. darn! it hurtss.. some people got nasty purpleish skin d next day.. akakakka..

gud ol days.. aighh.. wat am i talkin about..? seriously, kinda weird.. when i was in form 1 like dat.. d poeple i hang aorund is like.. seniors? yeah.. and lotsa em.. hermm.. uh well.. uh,. back to hyme.. dat guy.. i still a picture of him in his all baggy pants n sweaters.. wit THAT glasses! o.O akakakakaa..

uh well.. dno watta rite..

Friends Oh Dear Friends

2006-07-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

Went to school today..aighh..Xyhunt's mom came late..and tia was like totally late for duty PLUS totally pissed off..and xyhunts mom drive us so fast..and den..bamn! emergency break~! its was rather scary..almost throw me off my seat..actually, it did throw me ouf my seat..but nutin happen tho..

went to school to get Mr O.T.Ho signature..Aighh..im pretty sure he;s bored of seein me..kept on askin for his signature but i dint go anywhere YET..Hahaa..uh well..met lotsa pple today..Audrey kept me company..awww..met a number of teachers..and audrey was like..woo..can u meet a teacher without em askin u anything? Hahaa.. Guess, not now.. ahahaa..

Some of em are askin when will i be leavin for Germany.. Hahahaa.. Guess what? Im not goin there anymore..

Went 'lepak'ing at d bus bay with Audrey..Then, i got spanked..By Joyce~! Hahaa.. i missed her! Talk and talk.. She told me about wats happenin at school now..whoa! its OMG..!! before that i met pei huang..and saw her sis pei xuan..well..i have just browse Paris Hilton hair style..Guess what?? Both of em.. Have dat hair style.. LOL! -- dat above hair--

Miss Vivi is as usual..Bein her 'true' nature.. Uh well.. I wudnt bother if its not about me.. Altho she did say sumthin about me.. But well.. Hahaa.. Shut Up.. I cudnt care any less..

Ouhh!! Sweetie Lynnette met me for a while just to say hye.. Aww.. Tennxx dear.. met her again after school over.. fetchin tia from school.. Aighh.. I think she make a better friend.. Haha.. Seriously.. Innocence is far better than byothness.. =)

U noe what? Im not as alone as i thought i am.. I kinda have quite a number of people i can call close or friends hu are actually friends.. Pretty close? Yeash.. Minimum of 10..dats a lot oweady.. Maybe becuz i trust easily? Perhaps so.. Actually, i noe i trust people easily.. Hahaa..

erghh..im tired..sleepie..daa~

Hating it..

2006-07-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

How i hate this..erghh..a 6 minutes he's fine..all of the sudden..he's d opposite..Like why? I dunno.. okay.. i dunno.. looks i cudnt even ask a single thing about THAT..

Tia..wanted me to help in math..fine..cant u do ur works? I've been cancelin 3 session for 4 QUESTIONS..wtf is dat? im goin in wat? 6 days? 5 days? Erghh..

Im so not in a gud mood.. Like watever..U guys just do wut u like..

If im wrong ; tell me what..

.EnD.

From Ako Mustapha Blog

2006-07-05T13:56:00.000+08:00

A pretty totful post by ako mustapha..yeah..dat celeb..been goin to his blog years now..
like wat he gotta say..like this one over here..worth reading..

AKO BLOG

put the link at my links (EXITS) too..

*happy readin..*

Reflections Thursday, Mar. 09, 2006 at 16:39
I feel sad for a lot of people. Most people don’t realize when they say something they’re mentioning a lot more than they realize. I was taught to speak good about people, to forgive people for their faults. With the way many people behave nowadays, I’m wondering if this is still instilled into kids anymore.There’s an old saying, “It takes one to know one.” Most people use it as a defensive phrase when they are being commented on negatively by others. They just use it to defend and attack at the same time but most people, though, do not comprehend the whole truth of this statement. There’s another saying that, sort of, ties in with this saying which is, “If you’ve got nothing nice to say, don’t say anything.” This is a saying that I have personally tried to adopt into my life. I’m not perfect at it, by far, but when practiced it yielded tremendous results. Life really changed, in a good way, for me when I first started putting this into practice. It forced me to notice and say all the good things in other people. I made a discovery when I did this. All people have good and bad points. Now this is not a new discovery and I’m sure everybody has heard this. I have heard it many times myself but it was certainly different to realize it for one’s self. I also learnt that if I focused on all the good points of a person I would end up liking that person and that person would like me back in return. Likewise, when I focused on the bad, I and that person would have a mutual dislike for each other. I found this out when I started practicing not saying anything bad about people. This practice garnered me an abnormally large group of people who seemed so happy to see me. It felt weird at first but nice. But I still was a bit cautious. Later on, I understood it’s because I actually said what is nice about that person that that person appreciated me. A point to note however is that with some people you have to look extremely hard in order to find what is good in and about them. But all people have something good in them.There is another saying similar to, “It takes one to know one,” which is, “What I see in you, I see in myself.” This statement is less popular but it provided a whole new understanding of people for me. You see, we do not see reality. We see only our perception of reality. That means that two people can look at the same thing but will have a different point of view. So one person will say boulder but another will say a great spot to suntan. Whenever we come across something new that we have never encountered before, we have to take time to understand it as best as we can, at the time, and classify it somehow so that we can accept it. For instance, when we first come across something that’s flat and has four legs, someone teaches us to call it a stool. We digest the information and store it somewhere in our brain. The next time we come across something that’s flat and has four legs we search the database in our brain and we come up with the word stool. So, in order to understand what we see, we have to search within ourselves. This is why psychologists and philosophers say that our perception of our reality is a reflection of ourselves. We can only understand what we hear, see, smell and touch when that understanding exists within us. So the stool exists within our minds in order for us to recognize it in reality. So we understand stool but the next time we see something flat with four legs, we get corrected. It’s not a stool but a table. This is new information and has to be processed by our minds. Now both the understanding of table and stool exist within us and we are able to differentiate more of reality.So when people make judgments about someone. They are most likely talking about themselves (Now, there is a proper way to do judgments but most people don’t practice it as it requires one to use their brain. As Henry Ford stated, most people don’t know how to think). I remember this one time I was hanging out with a group of people when I had to leave. So I then told my friend that I have to go. He had no problem with it but someone else thought that I was showing off and being arrogant. All I said was, “I have to leave.” Why was my friend ok with it while this other person was not? Basically, my friend understands what it’s like to be busy whereas this other person was not. So, what this other person was saying is that if he were to do the same thing as I did which was to say, “I have to leave”. He would say it in order to show off and be arrogant. This is also why I try not to say anything bad about people and things because someone might be able to see the ugliness in me. So, in turn, I try to mention only what is good because I know that what I say is also a reflection of me.

Heaps & Heaps

2006-07-03T16:08:00.000+08:00

Im having insomnia ever since radzi went to m3x.. Hahaaa.. Uh well..Lst night, call him at 2353.. dats d exact tyme when we couple..So like..weeee! i just say 'hi..its 2353..happy anniversary..' can u bliff i actually cudnt say it all properly..stumble bituin d lines..Like oh so unbliffable..hahaa..and he IS gettin sweeter now..he just go as usual.. 'happy2..' i was like..dats expected..den he said i love u..its not like i never heard him said dat..i heard dat everyday..perhaps..many tymes in everyday..but, usually..i said it first..hahahaa..hu's lovey dovey now? neway.. i felt sad dat he's there, and im here..aighh.uhwell..i cudnt even talk for a long tyme..talk like few minutes..today is his first day pr lecture.. =) ganbateh!

Another new nice track..Remember Step Up movie? the ost Step Up was sang by this Aussie gurl Samantha Jade..So i went to her site..Not complete..BUt flash player there..SO i listen to this song " WHAT I GOT " -- im luvvin it! and so is tia my sis! ahahaa.. Here is her site

Talk with my gurl fren.. She got sum issues at school..So talked to me..Well..Her issues is a loooong story..ahahhaaa..uh well..den she said dat dint noe dat im a gud counselor.. SERIOUSLY, im NOT.. Hahahaaa.. I just noe some stuff OR some people.. And been thru hardess of life wen ur life is around byothes! Hahahaa.. I pity her.. She shudnt have thnk about it.. its not worth it anyway.. uh well.. BUt well..she said she notice me bcuz im well..noticeable? Hahaaa.. Cuz she said as a MALAY, im smart.. Well... I guess.. thanks..

Now im thinkin..So just as a MALAY im smart? ouhh.. i kinda hated dat.. Well.. i've been judged in dat way.. as a MALAY.. dun get me wrong, i have nuthin against my root as a malay..none at all..its just dat, i wanna be able to be notice as Adibah..Not adibah, the malay gal.. I wanna be able to compete internationally? Hahhaa.. Naa.. i mean.. its just me, adibah.. just me.. Get me? Hahaa.. im complicated eh.. isk isk..well..dat i noe.. most of my besties noe dat..actually, every one of em.. Hahaa.. Hurmm.. but maybe im not gud enouf for that.. isk isk.. because ther are many other malays hu are 'ridiculously' way smarter! ahhahahahahahahahaaa..

its not dat im not satisfied of wat i got..i noe im blessed..but well..dun judge me in religion or race..ahahahaa..ermmm..or age! ahahaaa.. otey.. dats abuot all i remember.. ahahaaa.. ouh!!! last nite.. i went to Pink Is The New Blog.. Luv it there.. So watched sum stuff.. And then watch preview of the new The Simple Life.. I was like LOL.. then .. took the quiz.. am i paris or nicole? Guess wat.. im Paris.. Hahaa.. its not like i have a sex tape or wutsoever.. Hahaa.. but well.. kinda funny.. uh well.. but after watchin d preview.. im positive, i like Paris better.. Hahaa.. Nicole.. well.. is.. a... "......" Seriously.. I was OMG.. and i tot nicole is nicer.. altho, i've always like Paris in sum weird way.. Not lesbo.. but like her ok.. Paris is like.. funney..

there is this blog about celeb plastic surgery.. HERE

There is this new story.. Where my dog at? i wish i cud watch it!!!!!!!!!!!!! Huwaaa.. Take a look at this videos.. there are mix.. but u choose from the list ok? well.. its funey.. animated Lindsay Lohan aka L.LO.. Nicole Richie.. Mischa OC.. and MAry KAte Olsen.. Even Angelina Jolie n MAddoxx.. HAhahahaa.. its just so funey.. HERE

Gotta LoVE EM!! <3>

ThereIm having insomnia ever since radzi went to m3x.. Hahaaa.. Uh well..Lst night, call him at 2353.. dats d exact tyme when we couple..So like..weeee! i just say 'hi..its 2353..happy anniversary..' can u bliff i actually cudnt say it all properly..stumble bituin d lines..Like oh so unbliffable..hahaa..and he IS gettin sweeter now..he just go as usual.. 'happy2..' i was like..dats expected..den he said i love u..its not like i never heard him said dat..i heard dat everyday..perhaps..many tymes in everyday..but, usually..i said it first..hahahaa..hu's lovey dovey now? neway.. i felt sad dat he's there, and im here..aighh.uhwell..i cudnt even talk for a long tyme..talk like few minutes..today is his first day pr lecture.. =) ganbateh!

Another new nice track..Remember Step Up movie? the ost Step Up was sang by this Aussie gurl Samantha Jade..So i went to her site..Not complete..BUt flash player there..SO i listen to this song " WHAT I GOT " -- im luvvin it! and so is tia my sis! ahahaa.. Here is her site

Talk with my gurl fren.. She got sum issues at school..So talked to me..Well..Her issues is a loooong story..ahahhaaa..uh well..den she said dat dint noe dat im a gud counselor.. SERIOUSLY, im NOT.. Hahahaaa.. I just noe some stuff OR some people.. And been thru hardess of life wen ur life is around byothes! Hahahaa.. I pity her.. She shudnt have thnk about it.. its not worth it anyway.. uh well.. BUt well..she said she notice me bcuz im well..noticeable? Hahaaa.. Cuz she said as a MALAY, im smart.. Well... I guess.. thanks..

Now im thinkin..So just as a MALAY im smart? ouhh.. i kinda hated dat.. Well.. i've been judged in dat way.. as a MALAY.. dun get me wrong, i have nuthin against my root as a malay..none at all..its just dat, i wanna be able to be notice as Adibah..Not adibah, the malay gal.. I wanna be able to compete internationally? Hahhaa.. Naa.. i mean.. its just me, adibah.. just me.. Get me? Hahaa.. im complicated eh.. isk isk..well..dat i noe.. most of my besties noe dat..actually, every one of em.. Hahaa.. Hurmm.. but maybe im not gud enouf for that.. isk isk.. because ther are many other malays hu are 'ridiculously' way smarter! ahhahahahahahahahaaa..

its not dat im not satisfied of wat i got..i noe im blessed..but well..dun judge me in religion or race..ahahahaa..ermmm..or age! ahahaaa.. otey.. dats abuot all i remember.. ahahaaa.. ouh!!! last nite.. i went to Pink Is The New Blog.. Luv it there.. So watched sum stuff.. And then watch preview of the new The Simple Life.. I was like LOL.. then .. took the quiz.. am i paris or nicole? Guess wat.. im Paris.. Hahaa.. its not like i have a sex tape or wutsoever.. Hahaa.. but well.. kinda funny.. uh well.. but after watchin d preview.. im positive, i like Paris better.. Hahaa.. Nicole.. well.. is.. a... "......" Seriously.. I was OMG.. and i tot nicole is nicer.. altho, i've always like Paris in sum weird way.. Not lesbo.. but like her ok.. Paris is like.. funney..

there is this blog about celeb plastic surgery.. HERE

There is this new story.. Where my dog at? i wish i cud watch it!!!!!!!!!!!!! Huwaaa.. Take a look at this videos.. there are mix.. but u choose from the list ok? well.. its funey.. animated Lindsay Lohan aka L.LO.. Nicole Richie.. Mischa OC.. and MAry KAte Olsen.. Even Angelina Jolie n MAddoxx.. HAhahahaa.. its just so funey.. HERE

Gotta LoVE EM!! <3>

Time flies..

2006-07-02T13:48:00.000+08:00

!! Happy Anniversary!!

We dint actually celebrate it.. Didnt even have enouf time together.. We went out for a while last nite.. Just for a while to buy his sandal.. Chat at YM after dat.. Until 3am or smthg.. Then went to sleep..This murnin went out at 11am til just now..1.10pm..We were rushin everywhere we go..Went to Fajar to buy his multi plug, can opener etc.. Breakfast.. I missed him so much! aye!

Okay..so i felt kinda sad when the tyme passed by..isk2..i love it dat he's around..But that wud also mean he's goin away again.. Yeah i noe dat its not as if we wun see each other again..But, it just feel in dat way.. What am i talkin about?? aIghh.. Blabberink.. As usual, i wanted to tell him things.. But when im with him.. Thats just it.. None of it come out.. Maybe a liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitel.. I think its better if i just look at him..Hahaa..well, not look look..But just enjoy my time wit his company.. =D

Maybe thats what we call " more than words " or " u said it best , wen u say nuthin at all ? " LOL

Hahaa.. i hold my guards when i said gudbye & c u again.. But as soon as he drove away from my house.. I was like.. ;"( Cried.. Huwaaaa.. I took 5min to be ready to get into my house.. Then.. ran to my room.. and huarghhh.. Let it all go.. Cried.. Hahaa.. Texted him.. I dint even say i cried.. But he said, 'jangan nanges..' So then, i cried more! Hahahaa.. Talk about bein childish! =P

isk isk.. i really dunno why im cryin nw.. Adeshhh.. Cmon adib!!! Perky! Perky! Perky! (dint work) He said that maybe he's not comin back next week.. Well.. Im sad.. No doubt.. Bcuz we dint have enouf tyme this week, he tot we'll celebrate it properly next week.. But now? aighh.. So yeah.. So i got touchy.. The only reason i wanted to celebrate it next week is simply bcuz im selfish.. Bcuz i wanted to see him so badly.. Hahaaa.. Altho, i thnk its acceptable if he cant come back because he's busy.. and i kinda pity him.. pity dat he's gon be bucy packin n unpackin n stuff.. I noe i pity him n stufff.. But i still wanted to see him.. But i wudnt take it hard if he cant make it.. I wish i dint even have to wonder if he's comin back or not..

Its not that i DUN WANT him to come back.. I actually NEED him to come back.. But.. Didnt wanted to burden him.. His future is important to me.. If i cudnt help directly.. Indirectly, i'd try my best... To love is to suffer ; but u'd still endure d suffering for it.. Aint that weird? Hoever wanted suffering.. Hahahaa.. I do! Huwaaa.. Now im a tru blu school girl drownin in d sea a adoration.. Hahahaa.. what a line!! i noe, but i still am drownin.. =P

hurmmm..all i talk about is HIM rite? i noe.. all my blogs is in this way.. I got like.. ermm.. many blogs.. Hahhahaaa... well.. okay.. lets try goin sumwhere else.. I <3 HIM

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radzi is back~

2006-07-01T19:59:00.000+08:00

radzi is back..hehee..have just got back home from astaka with him.. =D met joanne n hoon wah there..and jolynn too~! =D i really dunnow why i always felt shy everytime i meet him..maybe not all the time..but well..most of the tyme..im clueless abt that!! its like.. i act like.. 2 strangers meet and these 2 strangers is actually a couple..Hahaa..Okey2..it really doesnt make any sense..but this is how it is..well..i dint even dare to take his hands or wutsoever..Hahaa..but well..i got more ticklish now..! =P How sweet.. Dint plan.. But both of us wore white! How innocent~! =P Hahaha.. Its really childish to think dat its cute, but well.. IT IS CUTE! Im positive that he got fairer.. Hehee.. Cutie2~ awww.. how i miss him! but im still shy.. still clueless why.. Hahahaa..

talk with joanne while radzi n hoon wah playing basketball..joanne gimme lotsa school issues scoops! Hahaha.. Papaii school! =P joanne said i do look like a form 1 or form 2 student.. hiyarkkk!!! but then again.. she said that me and radzi looks like..... well...... married. ('-")

hehehee.. i dint say anything..its cute owwite..and again..i have a LOT to tell him..but when i meet him.. my lips are movin, im talkin, but i duno wat im talkin about.. Hahhaaa.. And when i got home.. i'd go like.. OMG! i forgot to tell him smthg important! I was makin a fool of myself.. Why did i talk like that? Dun i look stupid? ---- Seriously ;S

Tomorrow is our anniversary.. *tears* how sweet.. at least for me.. Hehee.. gonna go out with him tonite.. but not xactly celebrate celebrate.. he's tired.. and goin back tomorrow anyway.. said that we'll celebrate next week.. well, i cudnt complain tat.. i dint prepare anything.. Even if i DID, im not satisfied wit IT..How many munts i thnk abt makin a card..Tryin to do it..in d end, it end up in my file..Bcuz its jst dun show wat i wanted to show.. =P

Yesterday, had a rough nite.. Tutorin is hard.. Isk isk.. Watch The Fast & The Furious : Tokyo Drift..and Cars..Well..Tokyo Drift is not as gud as i expected..actually, dissappointing.. Initial D is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyy better.. Seriously.. I think i just like few parts in Tokyo Drift.. Perhaps.. not even 10 parts.. actually, yeah.. not even 10 parts.. Cars however is weeeeee!! Kinda nice! Had fun! Worth watchin it.. i love Mater! He's so cute.. Scarin the tractors huh! Dun let Frank getcha!! Hahahaa.. kachinng!! *flash2* hehehe.. ouhh.. i had a nitemare.. isk isk.. fogot what it is but overall ; scary + sad .

Been listenin to Lifehouse - Everything now..its d Roswell ost..Such a sweet song.. =) lembik2..

" You're my purpose.. my everything

So how can i..Stand here with you..And not be moved by YOU? "

Tutoring?

2006-06-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

Slept late yesterday..I really dunno why i cant sleep ever since radzi went to m3x..*sigh* I did woke up on 5.30am to wake him up..But then, while waitin for my cell to the 'write msg' apllctn, i SLEPT!!!! whoa!! Den i was shocked wen i woke up.. its like 7 smthg, radzi texted me.. Hehee.. After dat, i dint reply his msg.. bcuz i dozed off again while waitin for the msg to load..Hahahhaaa..Unbelievable~! Then i dreamnt that radzi sent me such plenty txt msges!!!!!!! I finally woke up for real!!! Hahaaa.. my fren txted me saying that he's off to Upm Bintulu, Swak.. Radzi told me that he havta conduct the 'senamrobik' session that murnin!! Hehheee.. Pity him.. Have i mention that he dint get to try out for the basketball team bcuz they simply said ' full ' .. not even a try out? How mean..... Told me that abg fasi nailed him durin the debate session..HUhuu..Pity him again..Dats d guy hu was suppose to conduct the 'senamrobik' thingy.. At noon, he told me that he was chosen to be the group leader for the 1st sem!!!! whoa! Im so proud of u baby boy!! <3 and after that, they have another debate session, and he manage to do well!!! protect himself from the nailin! ahahahaa.. Muahh!!! <3

Starting today, i were to tutor my sis in math.. Unbelievable.. But, well.. after the first 2 hour session... I think she does need it.. She dint use much of her iQ.. Manage to do just few questions.. Max of 10 ques in 2 hours!? U tell me.. She needed it.. She was askin me about coordinates.. But she was okay in algebra.. ??? Hahaaa.. dats so her alrite, she's bad in smthg easy.. but in smthg that was suppose to be hard..*snap fingers!* ahahahhahahaaa.. I duno am i proud or not.. Hahhaaa.. but, u go gurl~! Gonna go with my parents to take her report card tomorrow.. After that, gon go shop.. Hahaa.. For hot chocolate.. And vaseline.. Forgot to buy it wen im there this evening.. HEhee.. She had the habit of 'body art' while doing homework.. am i bad to introduce her to that?! Hahaa.. well, she overdo it.. aighh..

kinda tired.. so im gonna make sume revision about wat she's studying so that i can make her to follow the pace she was suppose to follow..i dun mind if she had her own ways, as long as she noe how its done..aighh.. wat is 1 + 1 x 0 = ? .. she gave me a '0'.. d answer is of course '1'..

Removed Kapersky today..kinda slow while using it..so im usin BitDefender now..Hahaha..dats d 1st rank anti virus this year! weehuu.. D pc is amazingly faster now.. =D Dad's school laptop is a total have to format laptop.. An anti virus is useless.. every application the school need is infected and u cant disinfect em!!!! and now, just now.. its missing.. pity dad... i'd luve to help.. but tell me how.. i thnk format is wat he shud do.. imagine, kapersky scan it like 50%... and 107 files infected.. Numerous trojans, viruses,spywares.. dats aHUGE number..

Tia sleepin now..Aighh..She havent use much of her brain..an idle brain is a dying brain.. seriously, i read about it.. its in parkinson article.. duno if i spelt it rite tho.. ahahaa..my english is 'dying' too.. dunno wat else to rite.. just waitin for radzi to call me tellin me to go to bed~!! =D

Lolita + Victorian + Baby Doll + Hip Hop?

2006-06-28T22:49:00.000+08:00

Just browsing around..Watch Step Up for like many times.. Not the movie, but trailer.. Arghh!! I so wanna watch it.. Watch Take The Lead too!! I think its sooo obvious what kind of movies i'd go..Hahahaa..Dance..Dance..Dance..Heheee..My craze over dancin never ends..Hehee..

Browsing YouTube for vids from step up, take the lead etc.. Im still searching for Timbaland ft Magoo - Now Drop mp3..isk isk..wat i found at YouTube was taken from You Got Served..I was searching for B2K - Take It To The Floor..What I found was a vid made by a fan..Hahaa..And it wasnte even B2K, it was a korean singer Se7en..He can dance..dats for sure..ahahaa..

Found few vids for Take The Lead..Weee! Ouh, the girl who stars in Step Up, is in it too!! Take The Lead Tailer , Take The Lead - Latin <3> (hu says tango is not for 3? hahaa.. in dat vid ONLY k ) , Dancin In Detention ..

Besids all those stuff..I browse around for well..Gurls..Clothes..Hahahaa..Hu can ever seperate US!! Hahaa.. So i think its pretty obvious wat i love.. Hahaaa.. My top oh so crazy style.. Lolita (ave a Lolita mini.. radzi bought! weee~) // Victorian (tops esp) // Baby Doll (tops..!! <3>

But..Hahaa..at tymes..Felt weird..Im a gurl hu loves stuff like lolita,victorian style,baby dolls..and im like so in love with DANCIN? hiP hOP? Hahahahahaa.. And then.. COlours~! Lolita dun have much colours.. its like either goth (black-white) or romantic (red - black)..Victorian are usually classic..Baby Dolls are like Okay..Lotsa colours..Hahaa..i guess i love modernize classic?? Hehehee..

Now start with radzi..Hehee..he's busy as usual..Hahhaa..Texted him in da murin..He said thanks..I duno why actually..Ouh..eversince he's in m3x, he wud always used muah..Usually, its ME hu do dat.. But whoa~ I dun hate it! as a matter of fact, i LOVE it~! Arieff texted him..and call him adze..Haha..radzi was shock n thnk its funey..HAahhaa..Well..I always used adze with my frens..instead of radzi..radzi is very classic..And i Love RAdZI..adze is kute + boyish..Arieff gonna accmpy him come back ere!! awww!! TQz arep.. Hehee.. But that fren.. He dares to call me by 'names' again.. U just wait my spongebobby squarepansy fren.. Just u wait.. *evil grin*

Mom and dad slept SO early..like 9.30pm!!! Hahaha.. im hugry now.. Hahaaa.. Uh well..Ouh!! i opend a BCB accnt today! ahahaa.. i met Perky Boy.. He's my senior, now graduated form 6.. I dunt noe his name.. i call him perky boy all the tyme.. I noe him while helpin him out with his sports house Shahriman even tho im a McGraw.. Hahahahaa.. He said that I look thinner.. On my cheeks.. talk to him like not even 1 min cuz he was talkin to his frens.. another 2 ACSian.. Hahaa.. I was pretty moody at that tyme anyway..BCB workers sure are PERKY!!! and Frenly.. But SLOW.. Hahaa.. i rmmbr openin an accnt at BSN.. it took like what? 30 min.. And at BCB.. 2 hours??!! aint that LONG?! uh well.. after tat, went to 7E.. Bought a LizzieMcGuire drink..Ahahhaaahahaa..Such cute perky pink bottle..250ml for rm2.20..Huhuu..Bubblegum flavor.. Hahhaaa..It tasted like Bubblegum + Sprite.. Not actually worth it..Belgium Choclate tasted better..cost me like rm1.30?! Hahaha.. My sis thnk dat LMcGuire drink tasted like cough syrup! Hahahaaa.. awww!! 7E always reminds me abt radzi.. we go ther almost everyday after he played basketball..isk isk..a kinder bueno // snickers almond + pepsi // yogurt drink..

Ouh!! My sis got better in using 'enhancer'.. i was like OMG + watever..dno wat to do wit her.. Ouuhh! I have xactly 2 weeks before i leave for utp.. wow.. Time DOES fliesss!!! =P r8za saket matte.. Hahahaaa.. I think im gonna buy vaseline tmrw..Hehehee.. Dno wat else to rite..Its a long entry anyway.. So.. chiao belle~? Hahaa..

Note To RAdZI ; sarang hae!! <3

Scientific Love Issues

2006-06-28T12:48:00.000+08:00

Aku : Kasihku, ketumpatan cintaku padamu ialah jisim hatiku di bahagi isipadu jantungku.Masihkah kau tidak membuat sebarang kesimpulan??

Mu : Aku tidak percaya kepadamu kerana kau ada kekasih baru untuk menjalankan tindak balas penggantian ke atas diriku.

Aku : Kau jangan salah ertikan kecerunan garis lurus hatiku ini, kerana aku dan dia masih lagi unsur dan bukannya sebatian.

Mu : Tapi, aku berasa seperti kasihmu berkadar songsang dengan kesetiaan yg kuberikan.

Aku : Tapi, cintaku padamu adalah pemalar!

Mu : Aku masih belum mengerti lagi kerana penyelesaian yang kau berikan masih lagi belum sahih.

Aku : Tapi, aku mengamalkan hukum newton ketiga di mana tindak balas cintaku bersamaan dengan cinta yg kau berikan.

Mu : Kau jangan bohong! Aku telah mengetahui bahawa kau adalah 'random' yg mempunyai janji-janji manis yg bergerak secara rawak.

Aku : Itu adalah fitnah yg telah tersebar melaui proses pencaran dan perolakan.

Mu : Tetapi, mengapa kau membuat tempoh perkahwinan kita mengalami rintangan?

Aku: Aku harus menggunakan perintang boleh laras untuk mengurangkan rintangan itu.

Mu: Adakah kita akan berpadu secara kimia?

Aku: Itu masih belum diketahui, tetapi hasilnya nanti dapat dilihat dengan menggunakan mikroskop cahaya.

Mu: Aku khuatir kau akan bertemu dengan yg lebih aktif dan bertindak balas dengannya.

Aku: Nampaknya, kita sedang bercinta tiga segi dan haruslah menggunakan hukum-hukum penyelesaian segi tiga untuk menyelesaikannya.

Mu: Tapi, aku telah memberi cintaku dalam magnitud dan arahnya sekali.Masihkah kau tidak percaye?

Aku: Ya, aku percaye. Tetapi aku mahu semua itu dalam bentuk lazim.

Mu: Itu semua boleh diabaikan, yang aku mahu ialah tempoh perkahwinan kita harus mengalami pecutan yg seragam.

Aku: Kau harus bersabar, kerana sabar itu 0.5 dari iman.

Mu: Tapi, imanku adalah infiniti!Aku: Aku tidak fikir yang iman kau infiniti kerana kau belum mendarabkannya dengan 6x10'23.

Mu: Kau membuat kemarahanku meruap-ruap.Nanti bila tekanan ku melebihi tekanan udara, kau jugak yg susah kerana aku akan mengalami hemolisis.

Aku: Aku sekarang bukan aku yg dulu lagi, aku telah mengalami plasmolis.

Mu: Kau betul-betul menyakitkan hatiku ini. Ku sangkakan kau intan, tetapi rupa-rupanya kau grafit.Pergi kau dari sini.Biarkan aku sendirian........

Got this from Ayuni's blog..Look at my EXITS..hillarious! =D

'Bolot'ing all?

2006-06-28T12:26:00.000+08:00

Anda berjaya di tawarkan untuk mengikuti Kursus Perguruan Lepasan Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (KPLSPM) Ambilan Julai 2006. Berikut adalah maklumat Tawaran tersebut :-

No. Kad Pengenalan: ************

Nama:*my name nia*

Program:E510E0000P- PENGAJIAN TESL(SEKOLAH RENDAH) UNIVERSITI LUAR NEGARA
Maktab:

W04

W04-INST. PERGURUAN BAHASA A/BANGSA

LEMBAH PANTAI

59200 KUALA LUMPUR

WP KUALA LUMPUR

Tarikh Lapor Diri:10 JULAI 2006

So..i guess..i got everythg that i applied..Im not goin for TESL anyway..Im still going to utp..Dunt feel so well now..Isk isk..My head always hurt in the morning..Isk isk..I slept early last nite..12.30am..but still, my head hurts..isk isk..i got tired easily now..isk isk..not fair..

Woke radzi up again on 5.30am..hehee..he's havin sum activities now..always..isk isk..and im here..hahaa..listenin to song n stuff..erk..no mood liao! papaii~

Missing betul !

2006-06-27T18:12:00.000+08:00

Went to school this morning..To watch band competition between ACS,Nan Hwa,Ayer Tawar..Whoa! ACS got the best drum major..the full result is have not been made, as usual..Haha..But it was kinda fun..ACS did get better this year..Nan Hwa was like as usual, gud..Hehee..Audrey got her butt molested for a split second by a nan hwa guy..we were standing and they were standin behind us..den d guy fell down after touchin her butt..wtf*? Hahaa..

Met sarah at school..She was huggin me so tightly dat i almost fell down in the middle of the crowd..Hahaa..Met chok too..He was bullying me - as usual.. hahaaa.. Then went to hang for a while.. Ate at school canteen.. Is ther sumthing wrong if i hug my girlfrens?? Or if i hold their hands while walking?? Do i really have to be a lesbo to do dat?? i just dun understand some people.. I have a boyfriend ok.. And im not bi too!! And sarah is my frend for like what? 8 years?! *sigh* Talked with sarah pet brother (seriously, i never wud understand why pple need to do that pettin thgy..it dint mean a thg..love is just love..frens or wutever...) His name is Faiz.. And he is funny..Hahaa..And i found out that his brother is Aidil.. The guy who played basketball with radzi..He went to Utp too.. I was like.. Why oh why r u so skinny when u're brother is plump.. No offense to his brother.. Nothing against him..He looks well..Its just shocking to Me..Hehee..Uh well..

Went 'kai kai' ing with them after that.. In school ok.. Felt like a school gurl all over again.. Hehee.. Help em to clean up bilik gerakan.. Band really messed it up..Hahaa..and Pn Loh was like, u guys clean this up..Since im there, it wudnt hurt if i give a hand or two..hahahaa.. After that, accompany kak fadilah to see Mr Ho.. Guess hu i met? Alvin Chan!! aye~! He's perky as alwayssss!!! He's sooo fun to be with! I never get bored with him!! Remember dancing like crazy together!! Hahaa.. And den.. Alvin was like.. ' hye devan..' i was OMG! looked behind me and bamm! its devan.. he called me in his nooty crew.. adeshhh.. uh well.. he's fun to talk to.. havent meet him for so long..Hahaa.. He's goin to penang if im not mistaken.. and alvin goin to go to sabah..hehee..he's takin sum majorin in chemical engn too..sep2!! same with mua!

After that, went home with sarah..she send me,my sis n audrey back home..before that, went to fajar first..Hehee..I dint buy anything..except top up card!! radzi..radzi..radzi..uh well..and then, went home..met chang yung and the har sisters at d traffic lite..sarah got prank by em! ahahaa.. huhuu..sooo tired..after bathing n havin lunch..im off! sleeeeeeeep!!! hehee.. radzi is so busy.. text him in the murning, he dint reply.. isk isk..after hours n hours, he replied..hehee..i slept till 4 smthg or 5 i think.. den take another bath! hehee.. den he text me!! heheee.. awww.. miss me.. XD i was like.. hehehee.. *blush* we just text for a while cuz he's tired.. so many activities.. so little time.. i tried to get myself busy..hahaa.. if not, i'll be mooonin about him all da tyme.. not that i mind.. but i might get carried away..

He had just texted me asking when will arieff come back.. I guess he is scared after all.. Hahaa.. uh well..arieff is still not so sure.. radzi is not sure if he wanted to come back on friday or saturday.. bcuz his orientation finish on friday nite.. isk isk.. but its just sum closing ceremony.. so i guess he's considering.. hahaa.. and i tot he wudnt even tot of runnin away from that! ahahaa.. He went to take a nap now.. Pity him.. he dun always stay awake in noon.. now he just ave like 30 minutes to sleep before goin for prayers..

Misses him so much.. as usual.. =D

Radzi (6/25/2006 5:08:32 PM): I LOVE YOU

Radzi (6/25/2006 5:08:38 PM): AND ALWAYS LOVE YOU

Radzi (6/25/2006 5:08:39 PM): BYE

Radzi (6/25/2006 5:08:44 PM): MUAHH...

Radzi (6/25/2006 5:08:48 PM): WISH ME LUCK

Thats his offline msges before he went to penang..awww...muaxxx~!

Baby Fly Away..

2006-06-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

Today is radzi's registration day..Hehee..I missed him..After gettin back from my gramps place last night, he ask me to check my YM..and guess wat..He send me such sweet msges..hehee..i'll post it up later..Hehee..

Last night we text like crazy..Hahaa..Said dat he misses me!! Whoa!! I miss him even more! Hehee..he talks about dat he was think about the gud tymes..Hehee..Sad..Touching* Hahaa.. Me too~Even now!!! he talks that in such a sweet way!!! Im touched..!!

When he went to sleep last nite..I was like..Okay, i'll go too..Hehe..And he was like..Thanks..Dont feel so alone like this..Awwwwwwwwwwww!! Hehee.. This evening, we texted.. And when he wana go to sleep he was like..U sleep with me too okay~ Hehee.. and said not to call bcuz d r0om is quiet..Scared if his frens heard..Hahaa..shy2 kat..Hahhaa...

Uh well.. i missed him.. kinda tired to type now.. Talk Later.. Wanna call him later too!! Hehee..Now addicted to Ai nI - Cyndi wang! Hahaaa.. Dang ni too..

Last Day

2006-06-25T14:20:00.000+08:00

Huwaa~! It rained again.. SO cold! Isk isk.. Radzi woke me up around 8.20am.. I AM sleepy.. made him a last minute card.. hahaa.. so i slept like 2 or 3 am.. isk isk.. So after he came, we went for breakfast.. hehee.. it was nice.. and den bamm! his car ran out of battery.. huwaa.. uh well.. dat gave us time together.. hahaa.. it was kinda hot outside.. waited for his dad.. snap some pictures.. go crazy for a while.. then when his dad came.. he send me back home nia.. cuz gotta buy new battery and stuff.. ermmm..he said gonna go out after dat.. den.. hiyarkk!! no.. huwaa again..cuz i forgot to give him d card.. hehee.. i actly plan to put in his pouch or wallet.. dint wanna tell him.. gagaa.. but he dint bring his pouch.. and i forgot.. after tellin him about the card, he came!!!! heheheee.. tell me im lucky~!! =D meet for a while cuz he need to pack up lotsa stuff.. he ave just finished packing.. now sleeping.. aww.. poor bebe.. he's goin to penang this evening.. im goin back to my kg after this.. isk isk.. ouh!! next week aka our anniversary, said he cudnt make it cuz no1 will send him back.. but he's so nice..heheee..he's gon try to take bus.. awwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!! im SO touched! seriously.. i love him!!! <3>
he told me not to cry...hehee..he noes me too well nia..

Huhuu..Brownniesss!!

2006-06-24T13:40:00.000+08:00

What a bummer~! Was supposed to go astaka with radzi this murning..But he hurt his knee..Pity..Hehe..But uh well..And then when we're thinkin of goin out in the murnin..It rained..For so long..Actually, until now..Hahaa..I cudnt sleep last nite..It must av been 4am when i finally get to sleep..Hehee..Uh well..Cant believe i wunt been seein him everyday now..Isk Isk..But he promise he's gonna be back next week for our anniversary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Weeehuuu~!! Yeah2.. Im over the moon! Ouh.. He did come at my place for like few minutes.. Seriously.. not even 5 minutes.. To give me brownnies he made! awwwwww..!! And whoa!! The brownies he made tasted gooooood!!! Luv it~!! Said dat he's gonna make it again for me.. Heheee.. Luv u.. he's goin to ipoh to buy stuff now.. He said that he'll try to finish packing up tonite so that he'll be able to meet me up tomorrow morning before he went to penang.....So sweeett..Hehe..isk isk..Huwaa..Study well bebe boii..

Luv u much much much!!!!!

Hate to admit that ;

2006-06-23T15:17:00.000+08:00

Fought with him..Agagaga..Its not funey..But its funey dat i enjoy it in sum ways..Im sinful..Havent ate from yesterday actually..My head is spinning..Install Brontok washer and Kaspersky...Can i use anti virus + internet security at d same time??? Cuz they said conflict between two.. Aighh.. Ermm.. My dad bought smthg about feng shui.. How ODD..Installed Adobe Illustrator CS..Ekekeke..I avent xplore it much..I actly wanted photoshop..but illustrator..giv it a try..i duno shud i burn my mp3 to audio frmt o mp3 frmt..Do kaspersky do sum checkin wen i start pc?? its kind annoying waitin about 5min 4 it to end..maybe longer..!! Havent talk to redza.. HUrmmm.. Wonder how is he doin now.. Still in pain? Nuni is sick.. But she's gon be fine..Ouh!! Sarah.. She's not gon do form 6 anemo.. Joyce told me.. But she dint now why.. So ermm.. I'll get to Sarah after radzi went to m3x i guess.. Wanna ask her a lot of things.. *maybe* Jojo.. She's doin sum cert at Delta Inst. Next to KFC there.. Huhu.. Can eat a lot niaa.. Installation Nite is coming.. Interact.. Vithya ask me to go.. Perhaps.. But maybe not.. Im gonna be busy by then.. I've changed ever since im tired of complications..radzi noticed..Dats a Danger Alarm..!! seriously.. now that i kinda have major complications.. Im gettin worst.. Im touchy.. Even MORE! I get sad easily..Im tired..Just so extremely tired..I dno wats right or wrong..I dont think anemo..I just 'sway' if u noe wat i mean..'Sway'ing is not xactly all dat fun..Its B.A.D. But still im swaying..Tired Tired Tired Tired Tired..Now i learn to keep my problems to myself..altho hard to control myself after dat.. ;(

I wish my anonymous fren is doin fine...... *pray*

Brownies For PopcornGal..

2006-06-22T13:36:00.000+08:00

hehee..radzi make d brownies yesterday evening..last nite..he told me that it wasnt well cooked..teeheeheehee..ganbateh!! huhuu.. slept late last nite.. around 4pm..hehee..temaning him nia..makan meggi~! ekekekee..
my head is spinnin about my sister's issues.. erghhh.. not dat im being such a busy-da-body..but well..a sister ought to worry..hahaa..
and then..the spinnin continues after noeing about the problem of my anonymous frend with his/her undisclosed problem..ahahaa..but thats the one that worry me the most now....isk isk..

My Sweet Rambling ;

2006-06-21T15:49:00.000+08:00

My Sweet Ramblings ; now reopen! =D
Just got back from shopping with radzi..
He went to buy sumthing to make brownies.. Wee!!
Dats sho sweet.. =D
I bot syampoo, deo, muffin + nutrigen..
He's goin to m3x on 26 June.. ;"(
Wudnt make it to celebrate 2 years anniversary.. Huwaaa..!!
Gonna miss him so badly! Ehiks!
After he went, perhaps..
Im gon spend my tyme with my girlfrens..
Havent seen much of em either.. Hahaa..
aRa texted last night asking when will i be free..
Well.. SooN.. Hahaa.. Adeyhh..
Im goin to UTP on 12 July.. Isk isk.. Tronoh..
Perak Desert in anthor language.. *shrugs*